LOVE ME OR HATE ME, i'm still on your mind.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

you know
i just realised
that this is porbably the first time
(ever since the first boyfriend)
that i've been single for so long
(i've finally figured out the cause
of my moodiness)
OKAY so maybe it hasnt be THAT long
but it sure as hell feels like it
for the most part
there's always been someone i can lean on
or at least someone that i feel strongly about
and this time
there's been nobody for the longest of times
call me spoilt
but it does get to me sometimes
you know
i was talking to char the other day
and we were talking about bad break ups
and screwed up boyfriends
and how when its all over
they usually skip off unharmed
while we're left in a mess
char was saying that
after a really bad break up
there's only two things a girl will do
either totally withdraw herself
or go in the total opposite direction
go crazy
go wild
do anything it takes to get attention
cause there is thing NEED for her
to feel like she is still WANTED
and needed
by someone.anyone.
i think
that at the end of the day
no matter how strong we appear to be alone
every girl/woman craves loves and attention
they need to feel needed
and they need someone to cuddle them
every once in a while
to block out the rest of the cold cruel world
oh wells
boys are still luxury goods yes?
if need be we can live without them
IF NEED BE

everyday i learn to miss you a little less

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I don't want to have to build this
I don't want to have to fit in
I don't want to have to need someone
But I do..

I don't want to have to attract boys
I don't want to have to be here
I don't want to have to eat to fill a hole
But I do..

But it's better than nothing at all
But it's better than nothing at all

I don't want to have to be angry at you
I don't want to have to blame it on my father
I don't want to feel sick around you
But I do..

I don't want to ever fall in love
I don't want to feel so insecure
I don't want to have to write this to explain
Still I do..

This feels better than nothing at all...
This feels better than nothing at all...

the tragic romance