whatever i say now PLEASE do not take this as an insult its not my intention i just want to EXPLAIN what has been going thro that tiny little head of mine dearest bins i think you should know that we all love you to death and i will NOT allow something as stupid as THIS to ruin friendship that has been forged over the best years of my life
i dont know where to start okay FIRSTLY i think alot of us were really upset when we read your zouk post i dont think you even realise that you did upset alot of us but YES you did you publicly dissed your friends! the ones that have been there for you thro ALL THE SHIT implying that we're insensitive and all? that's just like... NOT COOL MAN not cool
nobody's forcing you to come clubbing bins we get it! not everyone loves it i know prior to what happened last saturday i had NO IDEA you were THAT against it had i known i wouldve NEVER tried to convince you to come YES i do like to club clubbing and drinking is MY ESCAPE for those FEW HOURS i dont have to worry bout all the shit i have to worry about every other hour of the day
and binni how can you equate lat saturday to us shattering your heart? you are talking to the girl who has known heartbreak since she was old enough to understand it i watched my parents fight and i listened to my mummy cry i've always had to be the strong one my relationships end in shit all the time i cant trust guys and YES i understand the heartbreak of doing badly yes i do heartbreak is one thing my dear for whatever reason you are hurting and for whatever reason your pain and insecurities stem from i strongly believe that when you are down you dont pull your friends down with you your friends are there to lend you a shoulder to cry on to pick you up when you fall to be your pillars of strength when the world comes crashing down on you YES when i am down and out my friends listen to me cry theyre always there to hold my hand and be there for me but i dont believe that just because i'm not in the mood to party that i should make them feel guilty for wanting to have fun its EXACTLY the same as right after my a's the last time round when we were at harry's it was shortly after MY BIRTHDAY and i had such a shit birthday of course they'd try to convince you to party they're your friends they want you to have fun with them but i didnt go because i KNEW i was in no mood to party not after the break up and not after the results i didnt deserve it either of course they understand BUT just because i wasnt going i didnt have to make them feel guilty about them wanting to have fun they DESERVED to party i didnt that it i'm not going to be the one to ruin their fun
you say friends should take care of each other's feelings i couldnt agree more well dear friend you werent looking out for our feelings when you posted that first post about our zouk night in friendship there is not tit-for-tat if we hurt you unintentionally you can TALK to us about it face to face and we can clear up all the unpleasant mess and thats it its OVER problem solved! friends arent supposed to stay angry at each other for long periods of time but you blew it out of proportion when you made us seem like such horrible friends pbft.
and as for what you said about you being a friend, not some toy part of a collection you assemble for the sake of visual aestheticallity? not only was that mean but downright hurtful i did NOT invite the whole clique for the party just so that we would LOOK GOOD that's ridiculous you should know me well enough bins i dont bother talking to people i dont like i dont like to put up fronts and i most certainly dont want thoe whole clique hanging out together just for the sake of it and neither do the rest of us i love you guys and i want to spend CHRISTMAS with the people i love everyone that is a part of out little gang is IMPORTANT and although i may be closer to some as compared to others i love ALL OF YOU
so yes binni for whatever deep grief we have caused you over the clubbing incident we are sorry but before you say anything else PLEASE think about how you have insulted and hurt the people who have been there for you through the toughest of times not just me but PET and SERENA and the WHOLE GANG you didnt just hurt those of us that were there on saturday you hurt all of us
