LOVE ME OR HATE ME, i'm still on your mind.

Monday, October 13, 2008

it is COMING
the impending doom is getting to me
on thursday
after econs
i was SO PISSED
cause there is still stuff that
I AM NOT GETTING
i started freaking out
i was the first one out of class
and the whole way home
my mind was just a BIG MESS
i totally flipped
i LOST it
something just SNAPPED
first i was so angry
then i was so worried
and then i was upset
i just couldnt calm down
i got home and i was pacing my room
i couldnt sit still
TOTAL CHAOS IN MY HEAD
then my shuffle started playing
hillsong's never let me go
i actually took out my bible
and i opened it to a random page
it was a psalm about how
god will provide
and how he will take care of you
and never abandon you
so i closed it and opened it to a random page again
and it opened to a passage that carried the SAME MESSAGE
and just to be sure
i closed it
and opened it again
SAME THING
and i just cried and cried and cried
cause i know
i do not deserve his unfailing love
in my weakest moments he has never failed
to take my hand and give me strength and provide comfort
and i am a terrible person for constantly forgetting that

In the shadows; My spirit weak
Love broke through the darkness and lifted me
And I know you'll never let me go

In the storm in the raging sea
Love conquered the fear and delivered me
And I know you'll never let me go

Oh love in the shadows
Be the light who leads me on
You're love I will follow
Be my guide, You're will be done
Oh Lord

In the arms of the One unseen
Love carried the cross that was meant for me
And I know you'll never let me go

Oh love in the shadows
Be the light who leads me on
You're love I will follow
Be my guide, You're will be done

Oh Lord I surrender, now forever I'll be loved
In the love of the Father, You are faithful You are strong
So hold me now, hold me now, hold me now

Nothing in this life has walked these streets
Love opened my eyes show me what You see
And I know I'll never let You go

the tragic romance