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Monday, July 28, 2008

Suddenly something has happened to me
As I was having my cup of tea
Suddenly I was feeling depressed
I was utterly and totally stressed
Do you know you made me cry
Do you know you made me die

WELL
saying that i had an INTERESTING SATURDAY
would be an understatement
i will not dwell on the bad stuff!
ONLY THE RIDICULOUS STUFF
this week
cause of silly small stuff
alicia went back to missing shaughn like hell
and sank further and further into depression
till saturday at MASS
the sermon was supposed to comfort me
but instead it made me think of him even more
and when i lay down to sleep
i just cried and cried and cried
without him sometimes the world seems so big
and i feel so small
and sometimes i dont feel like i am strong enough
to do this on my own
and me crying made me miss him even more
cause it just reminded me of how
when i used to cry
he'd hold me till i stopped
and then he'd look me in the eye
and tell me that everything's going to be alright
and suddenly all my problems melt away
BLAH
no no more emo-ing
ANYWAY the point is
that i couldnt stop crying
and suddenly the vodka bottle popped up in my head
and THAT WAS IT
i cant even remember how much i drank
i know i didnt even bother to mix it at first
till my throat started to burn and the SMELL
omg first it hit me so hard and then i couldnt
smell anything at all
so THEN i thought MIX
i opened the fridge
TO MY HORROR
mango carrot green tea and MILK
so OKAY i decided mango would taste the best
OH MY GOD PLEASE NEVER EVER EVER MIX
VODKA AND MANGO
IT TASTES LIKE HELL
and you know silly me
in my sad state i forgot the alcohol takes a while
to kick in so when i finally did
it was like WHOA!
i remember trying to wash my mug out so the place wouldnt
SMELL of alcohol in the morning
i kept dropping it i couldnt even HOLD THE DAMN MUG
i have no idea how i made it back to my room
bt of course who is else is going to come save the day
other than dear serena toh!
in my drunken state it was honestly QUITE DIFFICULT
for me to reply her messages
after she realised i was drunk she CALLED
omg i dont even remember half of what i said
serena had to refresh my memory the next day!
all i know is that she made me laugh so hard
at least i went to sleep happy!
haha NOT THAT I CONDONE my methods of relieving stress
(i honestly didnt realise how dangerous it was
till i woke up the next morning and realised i almost popped
a couple of panadols while i was drinking )
and the HANGOVER THE NEXT DAY
was SO BAD
omg first time i have EVER suffered from a hangover
seriously i have got to pull myself together
i only have one thing to say and that's THANK YOU SERENA
my lifesaver i dont know what i'd ever do without you

the tragic romance