LOVE ME OR HATE ME, i'm still on your mind.

Monday, July 28, 2008

OKAY
and the lesson i was supposed to learn from mass
IT SHOULD HAVE PREVENTED ME FORM GOING BESERK
but i guess i like to do things the hard way
you know when you're sitting in church
and you get goosebumps right before the gospel
YOU KNOW that you are supposed to PAY ATTENTION
fr robert asked
WHAT DO WE LIVE FOR?
he said
Think of the one thing you want most in this life.
he was talking about material possessions i know
BUT the first thing that came to me was
to love someone who loves me as much as i love him
and i cant remember what fr robert said after that
something along the lines of
that all the worldy possessions we have
are worth giving up
cause what god has to offer is so much more
and then i realised that
i have been feeling so alone after he left
that i have been so busy wallowing in loneliness
that i forgot that god's love surpasses
all other types and kinds of love
all that we have
our friends or families
everything
they are blessings from him
and what he gives he can take away
and what he does
he does with good reason
i have been so lost and so lonely
because in my time of need
i refused to turn to the only one
who could help me

i'm so sorry

the tragic romance