i think i have become too overcritical of my size like SERIOUSLYeverytime i look at me all i see is FAT omg FAT okay i KNOW right at the teeny tiny corner of my mind that i'm not grossly obese or anything YET but YES i think it is bugging me TOO MUCH oh wells
haha ANYWAY guess what! i checked my facebook inbox yest i havent cleared it in like a month cause usually the only stuff in my inbox are party dates and venues anyway! so anywaythere was a message from gayle! hahah "HELLO PRI ONE BEST FRIEND!..." hahaha i just laughed cause OMG pri one seems like lightyears away now! and i havent seen her in eons sighs I MISS BEING 7 YEARS OLD you know me and gayle met on the SCHOOLBUS haha we were talking for like A WEEK on the schoolbus everyday but you know pri one kids being pri one kids the minute we got off the schoolbus we'd split and go up to our classes and we'd see each other back on the bus on the way home after ONE WEEK (maybe two) gayle asks hey alicia what class are you in alicia says ixora gayle says NO WAY alicia says WHY gayle says cause I'M in IXORA or maybe the covo was the other way around! hahah but the hilarious thing is that WE WERE IN THE SAME CLASSAND WE TOOK SO LONG TO REALISE IT hahah the innocence and simplicity and blissfulness in being a kid fun times those were it is AWESOME when your best friend lives just a few blocks away from you
and HEY am i really TOO CHEERFUL? like seriously i didnt know there was a limit on how cheerful someone could be
Friend: why are you so overtly cheerful -_- alicia: why does everyone keep on saying that!i do not derive any joy from being cranky and grumpy all the time.i much prefer being cheerful.so there.haha (: Friend: i dont know because you're like this large beam of sunlight?good for most,painful for some. alicia: pbft.WELL the sun cannot choose what it shines on and what it doesnt
alicia has wonderful friends. and she has the stragest conversations with these wonderful friends (:
but honestly it did get me thinking why DO i laugh so much i hope people dont get me wrong i know some people think that my laughter is to cover up my sadness that it is my defence mechanism but the truth is it isnt nobody knows just how much shit i've been though its not just my relationships its LIFE in general cause my life is so much more complicated that anyone knows so when i laugh and when i smile it is genuine through suffering we gain a better appreciation for life it is because of the bad times that make us treasure the good times all the more when things are going well so come what may i will always have my pocketful of sunshine god,family,and my friends and thats all i'm ever going to need to make it through
"Pocketful Of Sunshine"
I got a pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine I've got a love and I know that it's all mine oh.oh,oh Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me, sticks and stones are never gonna shake me oh,oh,oh
Take me away (take me away) A secret place (a secret place) A sweet escape (a sweet escape) Take me away (take me away) Take me away (take me away To better days (to better days) Take me away (take me away) A hiding place (a hiding place)
I got pocket, Got a pocket full of sunshine I've got a love and I know that it's all mine oh,oh,oh
Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me do anything you can to control me oh,oh,oh
There's a place that I go That nobody knows Where the rivers flow And I call it home And there's no more lies And the darkness is light And nobody cries there's only butterflies
The sun is on my side Take me for a ride I smile up to the sky I know I'll be alright
The sun is on my side Take me for a ride I smile up to the sky I know I'll be alright
