HAHA i just read my last post it was so laughable that i had to DELETE IT well i guess happy times over happiness for alicia doesnt last very long everything come crashing down after a while you know yesterday was supposed to be a GOOD DAY my birthday was ON EASTER i mean how often does that happen! RIGHT? yes but as per usual another birthday ruined lovely last year was saved by my lovelies but this year i decided to hide at home sighs it is over you know yesterday after i said what i had to say i really i really really didnt know if i did the right thing it was tearing me up inside but i knew i had to but you know as the day drew to and end and i still heard NOTHING from you at all i just i just stopped feeling anything all i feel is numbness and this great wave of anger and sadness because OMG ALICIA HOW COULD YOU BE SO STUPID he doesnt love you he doesnt even care cause if he even did even just a little bit you wouldnt be doing this to me i gave you everything i grit my teeth and put up with so much for you all the fights with my mum FOR YOU trying so hard to make things work always being there for you i was mentally and physically and emotionally drained i became just another stupid girl when i was with you you you had a hold on me which nobody else did what you did to me was cruel because i told you i couldnt and i push you away so many times you made it seem like you actually gave a damn well now i know now i know the truth and now i see everything for what it is why do i bother why do i bother worrying about you even now when you probably dont give a fuck bout me alicia will learn to have a heart of ice i dont understand you i probably never will and right now i just dont want to try anymore goodbye.
"Foolish Games"
You took your coat off and stood in the rain, You're always crazy like that. And I watched from my window, Always felt I was outside looking in on you. You're always the mysterious one with Dark eyes and careless hair, You were fashionably sensitive But too cool to care. You stood in my doorway, with nothing to say Besides some comment on the weather.
[Pre-Chorus 1] Well in case you failed to notice, In case you failed to see, This is my heart bleeding before you, This is me down on my knees, and...
[Chorus] These foolish games are tearing me apart, And your thoughtless words are breaking my heart. You're breaking my heart. You're always brilliant in the morning, Smoking your cigarettes and talking over coffee. Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you. You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones As I clumsily strummed my guitar.
You'd teach me of honest things Things that were daring, things that were clean Things that knew what an honest dollar did mean So I hid my soiled hands behind my back Somewhere along the line I must've gone off track with you
[Pre-Chorus 2] Well, excuse me, guess I've mistaken you for somebody else, Somebody who gave a damn, Somebody more like myself.
[Chorus] You took your coat off, Stood in the rain, You're always crazy like that.
i'm sorry i was the one who was mistaken i wont make the same mistake again
