BINNI"S BIRTHDAY YESTERDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BININA!! :) haha we went to minds for lunchhh/tea then had dinner been such a LONG time since everyone hung out together! YAYNESS and then me and pet an ian went to STUDY or TRY to at least rarr haha i just wanted to say that I MISSED TALKING TO PET T?PATTY! :) hee.... been such a long time since we actually talked talked i'm GLAD we studied yesterday! and like really really THANK YOU IAN for listening to me yesterday i think all my friends should get an award for being very PATIENT and not-easily-irrated HAHA sighs i think i wasnt rpoductive yesterday rarr am getting stressed stressed stressed i am going mad mad mad i dont know where to start with work i feel LOST so so so much to do! rarr rarr rarr somebody PLEASE JUST SHOOT ME only god can save me now sighs i know i havent been very good to the big man up there lately but please dont leave me now i think i need you more than ever now i am so sorry i am so so sorry for everything i dont know why i keep on pushing you away why i keep trying to handle things on my own dont give up on me yet
"I So Hate Consequences"
And I’m good, good, good to go I got to get away Get away from all of my mistakes
So here I sit looking at the traffic lights The red extinguishes the hope that the green ignites I want to run away I want to ditch my life Cause all of my mistakes keep me awake at night
And after all of my alibis desert me I just want to get by I don’t want nothing to hurt me I had no idea where my head was at But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that Because I just want for all of this to end
And I so hate consequences And running from you is what my best defense is Consequences Oh God, don’t make me face up to this And I so hate consequences And running from you is what my best defense is Cause I know that I let you down And I don’t want to deal with that
It just now hit me this is more than just a set back And when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn’t get that And every trace of momentum is gone And this isn’t turning out the way I want
And after all of my alibis desert me I just want to get by I don’t want nothing to hurt me I had no idea where my head was at But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at that Because I just want for all of this to end
And I spent all last night Tearing down Every stoplight And stop sign in this town Now I think there might Be no way to stop me now I'll get away despite The fact I’m so weighed down
All of my escapes have been exhausted I thought I had a way but then I lost it And my resistance was once much stronger And I know I can't go on like this much longer
When I got tired of running from you I stopped right there to catch my breath There your words they caught my ears You said, “I miss you son. Come home” And my sins, they watched me leave And in my heart I so believed The love you felt for me was mine The love I’d wished for all this time And when the doors were closed I heard no I told so’s I said the words I knew you knew Oh God, Oh God I needed you God all this time I needed you, I needed you
And I so hate consequences And running from you is what my best defense is I hate these consequences Because I know that I let you down Now I don't wanna deal with that i'm done running i think
