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Thursday, August 16, 2007

you know what i hate the most about myself
the fact that
I HAVE A CONSCIENCE
it SUCKS
to the MAX
you know its one thing
when you do something wrong
and you dont think its wrong
so you dont do anything about it
its another thing when you
KNOW you are doing something wrong
and you DONT DO ANYTHING ABOUT
and sometimes its not just the things
you do
and the things you say
its the little things you DONT do
and the little things you DONT say
the little things that you could have done
to make someone THIS MUCH HAPPIER
and yet
you choose not too
because
you want to be selfish
and you want to take care of
your needs and your wants first
even though
no matter how much you conplain
you life is MUCH BETTER
compared to the other person
sighs
i dont know
its been eating at me the whole week
well maybe more
but its just
sighs
i'm sitting there all the time
and i DONT DO ANYTHING
and i feel so bad
i see her all the time
and i DONT DO anything
i think i'm not making much sense now
i think the only person who
will understand what i'm talking bout right now is sam
SAM i am so sorry i upset you today!
blahhh
i wanted to get it off my chest
but not at your expense!
blearghh
sorry dear!

okay
alicia is going to make it a point to blog about
one happy thing
everytime i blog
i really really really
am very thankful
for my friends now
like REALLY
you guys make me SMILE
mariansammandahremi
ianiannathanmagshaun
serenapetbinsanisha
AYE
just EVERYBODY
i dont know why
but i have been getting very
sentimental lately
for some very odd reason!
haha
sighs
i just HATE the fact that prelims
are coming
AND YOU KNOW WHAT
NOW THAT I NEED TO STUDY
REALLY STUDY
EVERYONE KEEPS ON ASKING ME OUT
MY HEART ACHES EVERYTIME I HAVE TO SAY NO
blahhh
MUST BE DISCIPLINED
oh man oh man oh man

OKAY DAN I JUST UPDATED
see i mentioned you in my post just to
make you happy
ARE YOU HAPPY NOW?
haha
OH YESS
everyone
if dan asks you if you want to
hear a JOKE
please say NO!
his electrical jokes are
worse than ian's!
or nathan's!!
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW BAD THAT IS??
hahaha
dont cry dan
you know we still love you
haha

okay okay
OFF TO STUDY NOW
still i'll skip on night study today
SUPER TIREDDDD
yesterday i was SHAKING when i hit the bed
i need my SLEEP today
rarr

the tragic romance