How I wish I could surrender my soul; Shed the clothes that become my skin; See the liar that burns within my needing. How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold. How I wish I had screamed out loud, Instead I've found no meaning.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain, All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble. Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray. I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble. It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind; Hold memory close at hand, Help me understand the years. How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell. How I wish I would save my soul. I'm so cold from fear.
I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain, All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble. Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray. I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble. Far, far away; find comfort in pain. All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble. It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
Tears and Rain.
Tears and Rain.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain, All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble. It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.
this song has been like on repeat mode in my mp3 i guess it IS time i run far far away from all this maybe i should learn to find comfort in pain cause things never seem to get very much better everytime i sort things out in my head in my heart something/someone comes along to knock everything out of balance again today i realised just how much i've changed how my distrust of people has REALLY made me a different person you know i used to make a good girlfriend the kind that could put up with anything and everything all in the name of love but lately i dont know i try talking to my friends bout their boyfriends and i find myself being colder and more heartless more unforgiving this is not ME its not i want the old me back me sec 4 me before all of this sighs i dont want to be like this anymore much thanks and love to pet marian serena ian pet i was really feeling very broken up inside esp tuesday night/wednesday thank you for listening to me and for not getting tired of being there for me and talking to me even though the solution to all my problems seems relatively simple to all of you thanks to manda and sam sam and shaun and emily and binni and everyone you guys make me SMILE even when i'm so down you guys may not know what's going on with me but like just having you guys hanging around makes me feel a lot better i have the bestest friends in the world you guys remind me when i am at my lowests that there is so much more to life than THIS that my life does NOT revovle around this and that there are so many people out there who love me for everything i am and everything i'm not there is so much more to life than this alicia will not beat herself up over this anymore alicia will not cry over this anymore cause i know i have you guys
yep anyway today was a MUCH BETTER DAY alicia is smiling smiling again well i WOULD be if i wasnt feeling so damn SICK but its okay i'm going to get better soon! and HAHA i finally got bunny CARROTS oh my bunnies is was the most hilarious thing ever la HAHA i love my animal friends! <3 okay okay alicia's off to dinner now much love to everyone!
