He drowns in his dreams An exquisite extreme I know He's as damned as he seems And more heaven than a heart could hold And if I try to save him My whole world would cave in It just ain't right Lord, it just ain't right
Oh and I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful He's such a beautiful disaster And if I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Lord, would it be beautiful? Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth As strong as what I believe A tragedy with More damage than a soul should see But do I try to change him So hard not to blame him Hold me tight Baby, hold me tight
Oh and I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful He's such a beautiful disaster And if I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Would it be beautiful? Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical But he's only happy hysterical I'm searching for some kind of miracle Waited so long Waited so long
He's soft to the touch But frayed at the end he breaks He's never enough And still he's more than I can take
Oh and I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful He's such a beautiful disaster And if I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Would it be beautiful? Or just a beautiful disaster
i thought a lot about it today i did i've been thinking bout stuffs all day what i want what i need what i'm willing to let go of what really matters to me i thought i thought i owed you something i thought that our friendship was something worth keeping that you would value it as much as i did apparently i was wrong AGAIN sighs the thing is i finally realise i dont owe you anything i have tried i have tried my VERY HARDEST to keep this friendship sometimes at my own expense do you remember? no you dont instead you ALWAYS tell me how i never compromised maybe if you opened your eyes a little more you would see i have ALWAYS even after december i have ALWAYS tried to be there for you i have always loved you as a friend how many times did i put aside my own hurt my own feelings to try to make things work dont tell me i didnt try cause i DID up till two weeks ago i was STILL DEFENDING YOU everytime someone said you were an ass i'd be the one to tell them that in all truth you really are a nice guy if only they got to know you better cause i BELIEVED that despite everything i believed you i hope you understand why i have to walk away i cannot do this anymore i hate this going round and round in circles getting NOWHERE i loved you and when i say that you have no reason not to believe me but when you say that i have every reason to doubt it i'm not going to say if you still love me even a little cause i know that is too much to ask but if you still even CARE about me just a little bit you will give me my space because you should know that this is the best thing for both of us yes it is
