i have a lot of things to rant about things i have been dying to say for a LONG time i warn you though if you are a guy i advise you to just not read this post just so you know i do have wonderful wonderful guys friends too just that the ratio of nice guys as compared to the evil ones is like...yeah go figure
i think i have lost all faith in men/boys all they do is disappoint you and disappoint you over and over again i'm getting so sick of it i seriously am you know what? i am sick and tired of my wonderful friends getting bullied and hurt by unappreciative boyfriends it makes me damn sick and angry and you know i will be nice to you if you treat my friend properly,with respect but you hurt any of my darlings i will reign fire down on you you had BETTER take care of my darlings i'm sick of being nice and polite sometimes they dont deserve it seriously to all my dearies that are facing guy problems now its okay we dont need them okay we will take care of each other
okay i might be a little annoyed by this thing but it is not this that got me all fired up yesterday i was reminded that i have problems problems that are WAY bigger than anything i've been whining bout/ complaining/crying bout over the last few months and its all your fault it is why couldnt you be more responsible more loving more concerned is that too much to ask for? i thought i'd be able to forgive you but yesterday i realised that maybe i cant you spoilt it for her you spoilt it for all of us do you have any idea how much all of this has affected ALL of us directly or indirectly no you dont you see the thing with men is they never see their faults they always see themselves as the saints paint themselves out to be the poor innocent victims they just cant SEE all the hurt and pain they cause intentionally or unintentionally its not that they cant its just that they choose not too i've been disappointed by your kind too many times its because of you that i am so afraid of so many things but you will never know you wont i'm so tired its not fair its not fair its not fair i know life isnt fair in the first place but does it have to be so cruel to the innocent people too? i'm so tired of all this i hope some day you will realise and that someday you will see things for what they really are i hope that someday i find it in myself to forgive you for everything i dont like to hold on to this resentment but can you blame me if i do? sighs alicia's mood has been totally ruined now i'm gonna go drown myself in my soup now
"Because Of You"
I will not make the same mistakes that you did I will not let myself Cause my heart so much misery I will not break the way you did, You fell so hard I've learned the hard way To never let it get that far
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of youI find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid
I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me Because of you I am afraid
I watched you die I heard you cry every night in your sleep I was so young You should have known better than to lean on me You never thought of anyone else You just saw your pain And now I cry in the middle of the night For the same damn thing
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty Because of you I am afraid
