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Friday, March 02, 2007

discontenment discontentment discontentment
WHY do my good moods NEVER seem to last
sighs
chem paper was truly SUCKY today
i think
i totally screwed up CTs.
sighs
but okay
nevermind
after chem paper
i ran down to island creamery with my darlings
FINALLY
the last time i was at island creamery
was like...
a VERY long time ago
and we had our nice big big alaska
and then we had lunch at macs
and then we had to rush back down to school to
collect mt a level results
*GASP
yes I KNOW
i was so scared
there was no way in HELL i wanted to
have to suffer doing ANOTHER year of mother tongue
NO WAY
haha
but anyway
i DID pass
after all!
lalalala
haha
ICE CREAM plus results put me in a good mood
but THEN
i came home
thinking that i'll finally have some time to
catch up on my sleep
but ended up talking to mum bout stuffs this afternoon
put me in a relatively bad mood after that
sighs
i dont really wanna say why
but
oh wells
there's a lot of things that've been bugging me lately
i almost cried yesterday
i was thinking
bout stuff
bout how much i changed
bout stuff i did
which i am going to regret for a very very long time
stupidity
sheer stupidity on my part
i knew
i knew it was going to hurt me in the end
i just knew it
even before it started
why
i dont know why
i'm really truly do regret
so much of it
sighs
it magnified my fears
it...
haiz
i just never realised how much stress i was under the whole time
and i just never wanted to admit
how close i was to just giving in
sighs
it was my fault
my fault
it always boils down to my stupidity
always
sighs
sam was right
my mum was right
everyone was right
ah wells
this is what you get for not LISTENING to people
oh wells

well at least CTs are over
thank god
time for me to go catch up on my SLEEP
didnt manage to sleep before 2am the WHOLE WEEK
i think i might faint if i dont go catch up on some sleep NOW
haha
okay
GOODNIGHT PEOPLE
alicia's off to dreamland.

"Crawling Towards The Sun"

Carousels make laps each night
Like drunks we spin until were sick
Creepy clowns from one horse towns
Can make their livings on a trick

Night covers all our tracks
To break some fragile backs
So we tell some lies
And then we hide from light

One night I fell asleep and woke up on that sunny street
At first I thought I couldn't but now I see
That the shadows kept me hidden
From the light that calls my name
All the creatures stood above me
Now I'm crawling towards the sun

Candy lips that taste to sweet
Were sour in the summer heat
As the night fell I heard church bells
Say its time to leave

Out on the town we went
To carry out missions
Neither you or I would ever know sunlight

In the night light we still shine bright

the tragic romance