take it from me its a lesson to be learned even the good guys get burned (okay so i know this is from an OLD song but its nice.and TRUE)
and so i FINALLY get to blog after what seems like an eternity i've been dying to get it all out since saturday but its a good thing i didnt blog then cause then my post would have been BRUTAL okay i'm not quite sure where to start i was feeling down on saturday again and i remember telling god at church to give me just ONE more sign tell me what to do and i will accept it and i wont complain i wont argue i just needed a CLEAR SIGN. that's all and right after i came home i went online and i had that conversation i think god couldnt make it any clearer things are CRYSTAL CLEAR. i refuse to care anymore cause it seems that you dont at all what you said on saturday i wont forget i left the ball in your court but if this is the way you want to play it down so be it alicia has learnt a very important lesson that my sheer stupidity and naivety and optimism WILL GET ME NOWHERE i will not cry anymore it is just not worth is i wont beat myself up over it i'm letting go of it all thank you serena pet marian and sam thanks for talking to me and helping me sort out my thoughts
okay today was a MUCH better day everyone was HIGH hahaha. marian laughed till she couldnt WALK hehe. and it was wonderful sitting with sam in the library today after school just talking bout stuffs i love talking to sam about stuff cause i think we share same opinion on al lot of stuff sometimes then after sam left we had drama meeting and then hung around with serena and pet and binni for a bit gahh i'm VERY tired now think i used up too much energy laughing and being silly today haha its something i needed oh wells today's song of the day SHOTGUN SERENADE
SHOTGUN SERENADE I know you're dying to tell me everything that you want to say, but I'm not listening. Try to tell me everything that you want to say. I know you're trying to force me. Feed me lies but I'm on my way. Can you taste it now? I'm dying to watch your face when I walk away.
Here's the final bullet to put our love to death. Our days are never coming back. I know it's you. I can forget. Bang, bang. Shoot, shoot. There's a freight train coming to force your head in check. Our love is never coming back. I know it's you. I can forget our love forever ending.
I know you're dying to tell me everything that you want to say, but I'm not listening. Trying to tell me everything will be okay. Well be okay. You're trying to warm my heart but you freeze my blood. There's ice inside my veins. I'm only dying to watch your face when I turn away, and Ill turn away.
But you cannot separate the two things I would live or die for. I'd kill to separate your heart from your head. That's to die for.
Here's the final bullet to put our love to death. Our days are never coming back. I know it's you. I can forget. Bang, bang. Shoot, shoot. There's a freight train coming to force your head in check. Our love is never coming back. I know it's you. I can forget our love forever ending.
You're just a waste of a song. You're a simple regret. I thought I knew who you were, but watch how fast I forget. You wore your prettiest dress, but there's a mess in your head. They say old habits die hard. I say they're better off dead, cause you were bitter and cold, but still you burned me alive. You held the match to my skin and poured the fuel on the fire. You're not my favorite mistake. You're just a simple regret. I though I knew who you were, but watch how fast and watch how well I forget.
It's too late to play the good guy. It's too late to play the good guy now. It's too late to play the good guy. Goodbye.
Here's the final bullet to put our love to death. Our days are never coming back. I know it's you that can't forget. Bang, bang. Shoot, shoot. There's a freight train coming to force your head in check. Our love is never coming back. I know it's you. I can forget our love forever ending.
There's a freight train coming to force your head in check. Our love is never coming back.
