LOVE ME OR HATE ME, i'm still on your mind.

Monday, February 19, 2007

okay
i think i have cooled down significantly
since saturday
alicia is sorry for anyone she might have
vented her anger out on in the past two days
i was trying to be stubborn
i was trying
for ONCE
not to listen to my stupid nagging conscience
but i realise no matter how hard i try to drown it out
it will NEVER go away
saturday's sermon in church
during mass
was a message for me
how to handle ALL the horrid situations i'm facing right now
i heard it the first time
but i refused to listen to it.to follow it
then jeremy reminded me bout it after mass
and then my mum
reminded me about what was said in church
TWICE
sighs
and so
i realise i was wrong
no
we must not only love those who love us
anyone can do that
we have to love everyone
forgive
not hold grudges and carry them around with you
and always do things to BETTER the current situation
not to worsen it
sighs
and so
i will try
i promise to try
to love more than just the people who
constantly shower me with love and care
alicia will try to be an angel for as many people as possible
as difficult as it will be
cause it is a much better feeling
to be filled with LOVE
than to be filled with anger and hurt and resentment
all the time

on a totally unrelated note
i think i should go totally PIG OUT ON MY CHOCOLATE
wednesday is coming!
*sob sob
no chocolates for...
40days?
*GASP
i am going to DIE i tell you
grahhh
haha.
oh wells
till wednesday!

the tragic romance