LOVE ME OR HATE ME, i'm still on your mind.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

i correct a statement i made in my last post
choir is not LOVE
church friends is LOVEEE
sighs
this whole situation
is getting totally out of hand
and i want to have nothing more to do with it
i am leaving
before things get ugly
i'm not getting entangled in this big mess
my life is a huge enough mess as it is
i truly was planning to stay
for the meantime anyway
i went there on saturday
with every intention of being neutral about the whole thing
but i think
to me
the last straw was when
we got that last lecture after mass
that was it
please
i know what its like
to feel so much anger and frustration
that you just wanna plow up at the very next person
you get a chance to blow up at
but
in this situation
you seriously
just shouldnt be takign your frustrations out
on all the poor innocent casualties of all this
AND
TERMINATION LETTERS?
what in the world
since when was the church allowed to issue
termination letters to members of the various church groups
its all voluntary time we spend in church
you cannot TERMINATE our services
i am sorry
but i'm not sticking around
to wait for my services to be TERMINATED
i am leaving
i QUIT
this is not the way it was supposed to be
you know when i initially started to think
about leaving the choir
i actually felt very guilty
for leaving the choir in this state
but as of now
i feel that my guilt has been lessened
i say
it is time for me to take my leave
i am sure
there are some of you
who are trying your very best
to salvage this situation
but
i think we are all beyond that now arent we?
i dont see how anything can go back to what it used to be

and the worst thing
after all this DRAMA yesterday
RIGHT after all this
i get this message from a certain somebody
telling me i lied about some nonsensical irrelevant stuff
about someone being in gep when he wasnt
WELL i am truly sorry
i'm sure i stand to gain a lot
from bluffing bout stuff that has no relevance to me
whatsoever
maybe i over reacted
cause i probably was too stressed over everything else
but the last thing i needed was THIS
people LIE to me
bout real stuffs
gah
but nonetheless
alicia is a little sorry
for maybe reacting TOO strongly
okay
going out for dinner for in a while
gah
so not in the mood for dinner right now
seriously
alicia is a pissy mood now
gah
happy cny everyone
TAKE CARE.

the tragic romance