LOVE ME OR HATE ME, i'm still on your mind.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

everytime i seem to sort out one problem
another one surfaces
and the worst thing is
i never actually SOLVE the first problem
just keep on pushing it away
hoping that it will eventually go away and disappear
but IT NEVER DOES.
you
and you and you and you and you
keep on pushing me
pushing me
been trying to push me off the edge
and so now i think i've finally gone over the edge
will there be anyone to catch me when i fall?
that was meant to be a rhethorical question
cause i know there will be no one
dont try to catch me as i fall
i depend on me and me alone
i have and i still do and always will
i am the only one
who i should ever put absolute faith in
we were having a discussion in school the other day
and my dear friend was right
that putting all your time and love and effort
into human relationships sometimes just isnt worth it
cause at the back of your mind
you know
it is going to eventually screw up
and you are going to be left
disappointed and broken and
alone
i will guard my heart with my life from now on
i refuse to be stepped over and takedn for granted anymore
i need to take care of myself first
i am not the same person i was last year
wiser
smarter
colder
and this is the way i like it
me myself and i
the only people who can and will
determine my happiness.

"Lithium"
Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.
Oh, but God, I want to let it go.

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone.
Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.
I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, I want to stay in love with my sorrow.

Don't want to let it lay me down this time.
Drown my will to fly.
Here in the darkness I know myself.
Can't break free until I let it go.
Let me go.

Darling, I forgive you after all.
Anything is better than to be alone.
And in the end I guess I had to fall.
Always find my place among the ashes.I
can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

Lithium, don't want to lock me up inside.
Lithium, don't want to forget how it feels without...
Lithium, ...stay in love with my sorrow.
I'm gonna let it go.

the tragic romance