LOVE ME OR HATE ME, i'm still on your mind.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel that
I too too will miss you much
Miss you much...

today was
like every other day
that isnt necessarily a good thing
i apologise to all my darlings
i know i can get relatively grumpy these days
and sometimes i just sink into my own shell
and i'm sorry if i dont seem to be listening
when you guys are trying to tell me stuff sometimes
i've just been very out of it lately.
sighs.
i've just been so stressed and depressed over everything
i sat down and cried yesterday
not like thats unusual anyway
but once again it was serena toh to the rescue
haha
dear dear serena i really would never make it thro
without you
haiz.
i dont want to cry any more
i've been trying to study a lot more lately
partly cause when i'm studying i dont really have
to think bout all the other nonsense
and i'd choose studying over
thinking bout the nonsense anyday.
sighs.
its not fair.
it just isnt
the way i'm upset thro 3 quarters of the year
and when i finally find somthing to be happy about
god always takes it away
happiness is always SHORT LIVED
sighs
okay
i must remember yesterday's morning reflection
stop asking god for things you know he cannot and WILL NOT
give you.
sighs
alicia peter
for once in your life
please do yourself a favour
and do something RIGHT for yourself
the trouble is
i dont even know what i want
and what i need anymore
sighs

OH WELLS
chem test tomorrow
i HAVENT BEEN STUDYING CHEM
i'm so going to DIE
grahh
oh wells
what the hell
drama tomorrow too.
and the ptm talk thingy
sighs.
tomorrow is going to be a LOOONG day

Wishing I Was There

Take your hand
And place it in my pocket
Flick your eyes back in their sockets
Put those thoughts away
Sometimes theyre much to loud
Ill take a breath
And cradle your sweet head
Shouldve stayed at home in bed
Put that face away
Im melting for you

I know, I get cold
Cos I cant leave things well alone
Understand Im accident prone
Me, I get free
Every night the moon is mine
But when the morning comes
Dont say you love me
Dont say you need me
I really dont think thats fair
Boy Im not so dumb
But when you leave me
Ill be wishing i, wishing i, wishing, I was there.

the tragic romance