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Monday, March 13, 2006

i've been feeeling very emo the past few days...
for a while
i didn't know why
i juz did feel it
you know the very sinking
dissatisfied feeling?
if you've never felt it
good for you..

anyway....
i kinda figured why
think i'm sinking into depression again..
my birthday's coming
and i don't even feel birthday-ish
i dont even care that i'm turning 17
i dont want presents
i dont want a cake
maybe....
its because i keep thinking of my last birthday...
and how happy i was
cause i really had
one of the best birthdays last year...
i remember
it was the one
of the very few times
when i was genuinely
happy
inside out
ah wells...
i guess all good things have to come to an end
i dunno why
but...
the empty hole in my heart
juz keeps growing bigger
and bigger
i dont love him anymore
i dont
but....
i juz miss IT
being in that state of perpetual bliss
it's been ONE year...
i'm tired
i'm the kinda girl that
thrives on love
i can't live without it..
haiz..the past year's juz been so screwed....

ahhh.....
whatever....
the past is the past
gotta move on now...
easier said than done tho
march 18 is an ordinary day from now on..
nothing more
nothing less
closing this screwed up chapter of my life
opening up a new one
i finally got into cj
i finally know i can stay
and i've got my subject combi
i SHOULD be happy right?
yeahh...

ok
i don't think i'm making much sense now..
i'm rambling again...
haha
feeling a little scatterbrained right now
think i'm gonna go nap
for a bit.

the tragic romance