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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

well....
it's the end of november.
AFTER the O's!
i should have partied so hard
that i;d be SICk of partying now!
SHOULD
that SHOULD be the case.

was talking to nicky on the phone juz now.
and i was feeling pretty down..
so nicky tried playing christmas carols to cheer me up
and the chrsitmas song was playing
and i started crying.
cause it was such a happy christmas song
and...well...
this was supposed to be the best christmas ever!!
and instead
it seems to be turning out wORSE then usual!
god.
everything.
absolutely EVERYTHING.
seems to be screwing up.
i juz sat down today and cried my eyes out.
i mean could things possibly get any worse?!

as it is this whole year was screwed up enough.
then grad night had to screw up.
our one perferct night and even that had to find a way to go back.
and then there's him.
so the O's are over.
so maybe we aren't getting back together.
but...
i don't even get a call from him
to..you know ...
see how i'm doing.
i mean..
seriously.. is that too much to ask?
maybe it's juz me
and then there's stis whole shit with my mum now..
i thought..
finally!
me and my mum wer on good terms.
well..
i guess that it was too good to be true...
cause now..
it's back to what it used to be
cause of one stupid STUPID argument!

it's juzt so stupid.
the O's are over..
and i'm still as messed up.
still crying
still screwed.
at least when there was the O's..
i had something to do..
to occupy my time,,
so i didn't have to think bout how screwed up everything was ..
haiz..
i'm so so sick
and so so tired of eveything.

the tragic romance