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Friday, May 20, 2005

okies.
haven't been here in AGES!!

first of all...
i was supposed to post this YESTERDAY.
HAPPY 2 MONTH ANNIVERSARY DARLING!
iloveyou.
only been two months.
seems like...
so much more...
juz wanna say thank you dear
for all the things u are
and all the things your not.
for making me love you for u.
my happiest days
are the ones spent with you.
juz love everything bout u dear..
no matter what happens now...
next week.
the few months ahead.
i'll never stop lovin u.
we'll stick it out some how yea?

sighs..
now for the depressing stuff...
sighs..
results were like crap..
seriously..
fucking screwed up.
sighs.
ok ok.
i noe.
have to stop playing a fool..
as much as i love my darling..
i noe we gotta start exercising
DISCIPLINE.
hate it.
but yea..
gonna have to cut out some nick time
for study time...
sighs...
BECAUSE...
i wanna be able to go to cj
with my darling..
that's like so much more worth it
instead of squeezing out every lil time
we can get now...
going to cj together..
get to see my dear EVERYDAY!
dun need to worry bout bugging our mums to let us out!
haha
sighs..
but yea.
at the rate i'm going..
well..
let's juz say...
i have a HELL lot to do from now..
to prelims..
i intend to get there.
somehow..
now more playing a fool...
this mid years..
woke me up..
pushed the panic button
there's no time damn it.
i want my 10 points..
no wait.
nicy me manda.
7?
haha
well
u guys are so much closer to it
than i am..
sighs..
gonna have to do it somehow..
some way..
i've had it..
dun wanna ever have to cry over my results again
sick of disappointing everyone..
i owe so many ppl..
so much more..

but ok.
as much as i'm planning to go to cjc now..
still wanna keep my options open..
and do well enough...
to go OTHER places..
esp
after acjc's talk the other day.
aww manz..
so shiok!
sighs..
i can continue..
dreaming..
haiz..

the tragic romance