LOVE ME OR HATE ME, i'm still on your mind.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

back to blog...
at least now i'm not so disorientated
i can at least THINK.
my head's all messed up.
i wanna blog but i dunno where to start..
my haedaches gone at least.
and i'm not losing it every 5 mins
the morning was crap.

there's so much stuff i wanted to say to u.
which din hit me then.
oh wells...

and u say that u din get ur mum to do it for u..
guess what?
that's even worse..
cause do u wanna noe what ur mum told mine?
that you said.
that you told her.
that u wanted to put in on hold.
that I was distracting u from ur work.
but
u din noe if I could take it...
so if u din noe
that she was gonna talk to me that day..
it means..
that u muz have talked to her abt iut before that..
to think that that very morning u were talking like nothin was wrong...
to think that that that very afternoon
u were tallkin bout making out with me
to think that that VERY night..
u were laughing with me on the phone...
u gave me no sign that u were even thinking
of going thro with what ur mum had been saying...

am i pissed?
ami upset?
am i hurt?
do i feel betrayed?

lemme ask u one question
what do YOU think?!?!

i'm ok.
if u wanna put it on hold.
till after the O's
that's fine with me.
i noe O's are very important
i'm not stupid
you juz din have
to do it the weay u did it.
that's all i'm saying.

i loved you....
i realli did.
i still love you..
i'll always love you
i juz
can't promise you..
that i'll love you the same way
after the six months.
that i'll still be there for you
the way i was.

i dun make empty promises.

the tragic romance