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Monday, May 23, 2005

back to blog..
haiz..
i dunno.
waiting for parent teachers meeting
is like waithing for the impending doom..
juz feel darn lousy thinking bout it.
i'm sure all the teachers are gonna have A LOT
to say bout me..
sighs..
but i hope
whatever they sayy..
that they base it
on what i do in sch..
and not bout my personal life
and what they HAPPEN to find out
if they chance upon my blog.
what i write
on my blog
is my personal stuff..
and i'd juz like ppl to respect that.

sighs.
and abt what the teachers are gonna say..
.sighs..
still pissed of with mr tan.
damn it
friday realli sucked.
school was bad.
had to go and see mr tan after school.
got a big time thrashing from him..
sighs.
i hate it manz..
i NEVER before
in my entire life
have cried in front of the darn goat.
no matter what
it's juz this thing i have
that no matter what he says
i can't
that's like..
giving in to him..
but i juz totally lost it on friday..
aw manz..
dunno how i'm gonna face him the next time..
but seriously
he was being an ass..
wth
60% of our bloody aep class
failed the subj
and how the hell
does he expect ME
to be part of that 40%?!?
please..
be REALISTIC.
god.
he was going on..
bout how my aep
how it was juz realli bad..
like ok.
nvm..
then he started going on bout my project
how it was worrying
how i was as worrying as kelsey.
but how it was different for kelsey.
cause she was juz a bad of problems of her own.
and how she was difficult
and how she always gave him problems
and pissed him of.
and how this isn't wad he expected from me
WHY AM I SO DIFFERENT?!?
at least kelsey can draw damnit!
i can't!
argh.
and then.
he was like..
alicia i dunno what happened to u
u were never like this
u were good
sec 1
2
even 3.
what happened to u?
are u doing this badly for all ur other subjs?!?
and he said it like i wasn't
and that's when i totally lost it!
damn it
i AM
why do u think i'm TRYING
to heck care abt aep?!?
it's not becasue i have nothing better to do
than give the poor guy more headahces!!!
it's cause..
i can't take it
i can't handle everything!!
i'm juz..
one big screw up now..
sighs..
yea..
and he wants to see my mum..
i'm on the "endangered" list
for aep.
great
juz GREAT.
parent teachers meeting
is gonna be
SO "exciting"!
can't wait!
*gives sarcastic look.
sighs.

the tragic romance