heya!ok.i'm finally updating!beeen a while since i did i donno where to start!sighs.din go for aep todae.was sick.todae was seriously shit.past few days have been like some rolller coaster manz!my ups are realli up and my downs are really down.yesterday was valentine's day!!!so happy valentine's day to ya'l!haha.was in a superdy duperdy mood for most of the day!!i mean it's valentine's day!!had all those nice pretty pretty flowers and delicious brownies and sweets and way too much chocolate!haha.yea.then after school went for lunch with me darlin claire.and adel.came home at bout five.got into trouble for that.ok that i deserved so i din argue.i din say anything....but of course u noe things in this household always seem to find a way to blow way outta proportion.my tuition got cancelled cause my dear student was sick.aww... but it was pay day!!!haha.yea was tryin to studay chem.dad came back.mum was complaining to him abt me. next thing u noe my dad's in my room yelling at me at the top of my lungs.somethin bout who the hell do i think i am?and aiya can't realli remember was juz damn pissed.all that anger was juz building up inside.i wanted to scream.god.i'm like stuck in this vicious cycle!damnit.sighs.yea then he walked out.10 mins later he's back in my room lecturing me about how i have no respect for my parents and my family and how i dun care abt them and how i only have place in my life for my friends and was askin wad they ever did to make me hate them so much.and the stupid phone issue came up again and the threat to take away my phone.haiz last night was damn screwed.my dad NEVER yells at me!haiz.only consolation was like at least i had someone to talk to.kinda distracted me so i din feel so helpless.haha.thank u!but yea... todae was bad!pms-ing big time.my backache's killin me and my cramps are like juz as bad la.wth.stupid a maths todae.studpid chem test.darn it i was so lookin forward to passing this one!!!wahaha.was feelin damn terrible towards the end of the day.which is why i din stay back for aep.came home.and like for the fisrt time in weeks my mum talked to me.she was like alicia.i dun care how angry u are.i'm angry too.but todae when i went to church and i prayed.i realised that it' lent now and it's not the time for everyone to be acting this way.so i dunno abt u buut i'm wiping the slate clean now.i dun expect anything from u.but i hope at lest u will try too.to compromise and be honest with me.and i juz cried. i cried. it was like all the tension that was there for so many weeks btw us kinda dissipitated and i was left to feel was....gratefel.cause once again god saved my ass again.haha.god juz when i thought that i couldn't take anymore and that there was no way i could be more miserable.he helped work it out.juz glad i came home early todae.guess it's kinda a relief for both me and my mum.yea.it's lent now.so i muz tr yand be nicer too!haha. anyway's there's gonna be youth mass at christ the king on saturdayy dis week!!!! :) if any of ya'l are planing to go lemme noe yea?cause I"M goone be there!haha. okie everyone tc yea?love ya'l! *oh yea.and nicky wants her name in this antry cause like i'm taking time outta our phone conversation to do dis so yea...haha.yea nicky i love ya lotts!!!well,i love you as much as u love me! hehe. :) *
